Haru fucking broke my heart in this episode.
From the beginning of the anime, we know Haru loves the water, he loves swimming free, he truly doesn’t care about his time or being scouted but I feel like - in this episode - it’s the first time that we truly saw that.
Haru has been lately put under a lot of pressure, what does he want to do next year ? Does he wants to go pro ? Will he accept the scouts many offers ? Will he and his friends win the relay this year ? Although he didn’t give two shits about being scouted or not, the fact that he was, the fact that many people think he has a great talent, that people are counting on him, that he’s being called the pride of Iwatobi High School, that made it all real for him, serious, it made swimming serious.
And Haru doesn’t want that, he doesn’t want the pressure, he doesn’t want to think about his immenient future, he doesn’t want to swin to for someone else, Haru only swims free, he only swims for himself and his friends.
This is why he stopped in the middle of the race because Haru swims because he wants to, not because he has to and especially not to impress someone else. Being put in this situation, under this stress, literallymade him feel like he couldn’t swim anymore, like he wasn’t free anymore. You can even see it as he swims, at the beginning the water is clear like usual but soon and it becomes dark, dark like when Sousuke swims because now, swimming because as painful for Haru because of the stress as it is for Sousuke because of his shoulder.
This scene was as powerful as it was heartbreaking because he Haru can’t swim freely, he won’t swim at all.
let’s talk about this please
Sousuke keeps referring to dreams and dreaming, something that we have seen Rin do so many times before and something that has been addressed in today’s episode multiple times, but the preview for next week shows us something completely new.
what the preview is about is not achieving dreams but recognising dreams as what they are - not real. whether they are not real at the moment or never will be real.
now why is this so fucking heartbreaking for Sousuke? this boy has the talent to achieve his dreams and he was so close to it too - he got scouted long before everyone else did. he was literally a step away from his childhood dream and it was all ripped away from him by something that striving to achieve his dreams probably caused.
"I wish I could continue dreaming the dreams I had back then". Sousuke would rather live in the oblivion of hoping and dreaming and not knowing than be where he is now - completely torn apart.
but what really struck me in this preview is Rin telling Sousuke to wake up. Rin, who is constantly dreaming and aiming high and hoping and pushing himself to achievement, who has gone through his father’s dream and has finally found his own, a person who is obsessed with achieving his dreams, is telling his friend to wake up. he is telling Sousuke that his health and his well being are more important than any dream. he is showing that all along it was all For the team and for his friends. he is showing Sousuke that they don’t have to swim a relay together to have a bond or to matter as a pair. Sousuke translates to more than a fellow swimmer or teammate, he is more important than a dream because a dream will always be nothing more than a dream, what reality brings is something completely different.
yknow, i’ve seen a lot of posts analyzing haru’s nightmare and rin and haru’s fight from last episode, but im honestly shocked at the lack of attention this scene has.
we’ve been seeing all season that makoto is struggling with what he wants to do when he gets out of high school. he probably never thought he’d be able to make it to the big leagues because his talent wasn’t up there with haru and rin’s. he’s jealous of rin because he could never ignite that spark in haru that rin can when they swim. haru is constantly being targeted by scouts. makoto probably feels like he’s being left behind.
but right here. this is the first time makoto is being told that his talent is worth something. even if he has decided on what he wants to do after graduation (i.e., studying in tokyo, working at the iwatobi swim club, etc.), this is the only time makoto has heard he has the potential to keep swimming. and it’s not from his best friend or his teammates or his teachers - it’s from rin.
obviously rin’s goal is to swim professionally and make it to the olympics. but up to this point makoto had assumed he was only interested in whether or not haru was taking his future into consideration. rin is also worried about makoto. not many people remember that makoto and rin are very close friends because they don’t have the same bond with each other that they both have with haru. but all season rin has been worrying about them both and rin wants them both to consider swimming professionally, not just for their future’s sake, but so he can continue swimming with his friends.
Emphasis added. At the cherry blossom pool, Rin did ask both Haru and Makoto what their plans were for the future, after all.
1) The day my sister got back from the hospital after a suicide attempt. I didnt let go for about an hour.
2) Kid just found out his brother was shot and killed.
3) A Russian war veteran kneels beside the tank he spent the war in, now a monument.
4) Man sobbing at animal shelter. After being jailed briefly and his dog Buzz Lightyear impounded he couldn’t afford the $400 to get his pet back.
5) A firefighter gives water to a koala during the devastating Black Saturday bushfires that burned across Victoria, Australia, in 2009.
6) Alcoholic father with his son
7) Robert Peraza pauses at his son’s name on the 9/11 Memorial during the tenth anniversary ceremonies at the site of the World Trade Center.
8) Greg Cook hugs his dog Coco after finding her inside his destroyed home in Alabama following the Tornado in March, 2012
9) After two double lung transplants and years of battling cystic fibrosis, my good friend passed away last Saturday. This was one of the last pics taken with his mother.
These are probably some of the most powerful pictures I’ve ever seen and some hit close to home.
since it’s almost my birthday -
- my mum says they could buy me a new phone (WITH A BETTER CAMERA FINALLY), so I’ve been looking at phones all afternoon, annndd I’ll probably get the samsung galaxy note 3. It’s a lot bigger than my phone, but it’s got a pen so I could even draw on it!!!! and as soon as I realized that my mind was set, no matter how many other phones I looked at
You’re so lucky! I want one too…
I’ve asked my aunt about it (she has one) and she says that the main downfall is that it lags off sometimes and that its battery runs out very quickly!
Please make a wise choice. And congrats!
sometimes my emotion is just the word “fuckign”